It is good to want less, I’ve heard. Is it also good to want less from yourself?
To want to be one thing less, to struggle toward one dream less, to desire to excel in one thing less?
The inner well of self-belief once discovered, is surprisingly deep and unrealistically wide. We make ourselves want to be extraordinary, we make ourselves believe we have purposes to fulfil. In this world of reckless contest, even more so. We want to learn more, be more, do more. We want to get rid of what we have because we believe we want something else.
We burden ourselves with expectations, then push ourselves, often half-heartedly, the other half filled with pressure and uncertainty.
We push ourselves, yet can never be satisfied by the extent of our push, and we push more. And we exhaust before we achieve.
We feel powerless, and think lesser and lesser of ourselves and our life. We start wishing more. And stop appreciating whatever little or much we have.
At the end of the day, no matter what we have done, or how close we have gotten to our goals, we are still dissatisfied. Unhappy with the extent of our achievement. Because it is nothing when compared to what we fancy ourselves achieving.
Why do this to ourselves? Why think lesser and lesser of our life? Why not cut loose a couple of aspirations, why not ease out the pressure we carry day in and day out?
Why not be just a great something, rather than struggle to be a good everything?
Why not hold on to one thing with both arms, rather than spreading ten fingers ten ways, trying to hold ten things?
Why can’t we get rid of the whip of comparison and expectation?
Why can’t we just do one thing at a time, focus on one thing at a time?
Why do we have to think about a car, a home and a bank balance, when we can just choose one of them to start with?
Most of us spend one-third of our day at work. Some of us even two-thirds. Why can’t we just plain focus on the job, and not on some clout of aspirations that you want to fulfil with the money that it will bring you in the next x years? If not, why can’t we just leave the job, and take the plunge into doing the thing we know would be right and best for us?
Why always this and that? Why not just this or just that? At least for now?